M.S : Memorandum of Separation

The time is 0230 hrs.The time for the departure of Flight AI0601 is nearingby.The international terminal of Rajiv Gandhi Int'l Airport was bustling with the levels of excitement rising high,infact it was their agony of losing their beloved ones for a long time from now.I was there to bid adieu to a 290-pound heavyweight,my best friend,my school benchmate and a perfect friend for more than 8yrs...Pavan a.k.a GODA.

Exactly 2yrs ago a tsunami devastated a major part of south-east asia.And to the same date now he whisked off to US leaving behind the sweet memories and triggering tsunami in the hearts of people back in India.Not just me nick or his parents...a lot of ppl(i can say fans ;)).It has been more than 8yrs with him without any break until now.These 8yrs were almost perfect for us.I always used to look at him very surprisingly at his heavy phyisque when i was in my 9th.It all started in 10th class when our very respected and loved classteacher Malathi Ramaswamy forced us to sit together in the same bench.From then on therz no looking back(hehe good dialogue actualy).We always looked back at our past and cherish our memories all the time talking how he had a 'real fight' with the Jitender, how he n Shashank made me mess up with Priyanka's slambook, how he dropped my catch which eventually helped me in scoring 54, how i was surprised and asked him "nuvvu kuda ammayila vanka chustava?" for the first time when he talked to me about gals, how nick used to drive the bike so rashly n luckily mised an accident once(but later they had one),how he used to pester me to go slow when i ride n he sits pillion, how i used to make his mouth shut by remembering the incident when he met with an accident hitting a cycle n broke my bike's dome...From now on all those discussions and all those days will be bygone.

The two words which does all this are M.S - i like calling it Memorandum of Separation than Master of Science.Im not blaming it.I know its jus another phase of life but its hard to part from all those times very suddenly.Previously my frnds used to call me rock(hearted) but now i've become a real rockhrtd guy after missing so many people.It has now become like a daily routine to me.Miss Pavan really,though never told him this.Just wondering whoz gonna abuse me for not calling for many days,whoz gonna steal my fench fries in Kinghorn,whoz gonna give me company in Narayan Reddy,serve me in China Town,clean my table in Tanda Garam n finally sit along with me on the "pitta goda".Huh!! its useless thinking about things that are never gonna happen again.

Not just now,I was haunted in the same way when Simmi left for U.S.That was for the the first time n it felt real hard to me.But now i got used to it(told u na its lik a habit to me now).Amy goes next.I wonder how often will he b in touch with me wen he leaves the country coz he doesnt call me frequently while India(not worse than me though).Maybe the last one leave would be Sammi.

Me and Simmi...Je Te Hais Simmi

Me n Amy...thats in Goa.Reminiscent of Dil Chahta Hai,isn't it?

Hmm.Pavan has always been a kind of a guy who cares n thinks a lot about the ones whom he love.He acted kinda wierd sometimes when it comes to me n my LEVEN.He always feels,i think,like me goin away or distancing from him...hmm dats wat i can understand from his comments to my earlier blogs.But to be true the ones whom i consider the best of all my frnds n the ones who first comes to my mouth wen some1 asks for the names of my frnds are....Pavan n Nick.Without doubt.I always wanted to tell him this but never was be able to tell him this.I got the chance now...;)

All the best to you Pavan.You know wat my dream is(u remember?).To see u in DRDO or ISRO ;).I wish to see ur foto in the newspaper 30 or 40 yrs from now designating you as a yesteryear scientist who led the team as the project director or research scientist for some prestigious defence mission or space explotation project.....Wish all the colors of the rainbow be with you or else take rainbow itself for ur size.And one more important thing.Plz dont get confused between a long haired man and a woman.Atleast from now.

Dil Chahta Hai....

Ha here it is.....my first video.The one which i've been talkin about in all my previous posts.I've been dying to put this in my blog finally got it.A video with me n my friends in Goa.I always dreamt of being there along with my friends(MAXOS) in the song "Dil Chahta Hai"(my favorite).That was my 2nd yr b.tech dream came true only in final year but still its better late than never.I dedicate this video to MAXOS.I donno whether it came gud or not but the people for whom i made it simply loved it.C n njoi(if u like it!!!)....

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The Rooms

He opened the door after a long time. The room is calm, neat and clean. No cobwebs no dust, everything in the room is tidy and in perfect order. This room is perfectly set for a student who would like to stay in it for some average rent. Its design is meant only for a student. It ain’t a huge room with grandeur, sparkling illumination, crystal work, attractive painting, and wall decorations. You will find nothing of that sort .It is a small room big enough for one student to spend his student life. Now one of his old school pals rents that room who was presently out of station on vacation.

He stepped in it after a long two months. You may ask "2 months is so long?” Yes, for Sunny it is too long. He walked into the soothing silence of his room. A smile flashed on his lips .He is happy to be at the place where his engineering career started, went along, and ended. But he isn’t completely happy. The serenity of the room started piercing him. He always wanted his room to be this silent during his student life. It was his dream but it was never so. The room now, is how he wanted it to be. But his favorite silence is tearing him apart. Some vague images and voices are wobbling in his mind. Through the mildness of the silence he could now clearly hear people yelling and complaining to him about the mischief of Puppy and Simmi. The smile on face vanished in a snap. He desperately wants them back. Once he used to yell at them, scold them and even asked them to get out of his room many a time for making his room look shabby. Now Sunny wants them to come back and destroy the neatness of his room and hear them shout and scream. He is missing their sweet mischief. Not just Pup and Sim, he wants to hear all the voices again. He wants Amy to shout from upstairs asking him to get the drinking water filled in the bottles. He wants Ash and Sandy to “measure his depth” forcibly. He wants Pup and Sandy to pull his underwear out and tear it into pieces. He wants to have a brawl with Sandy. He wants Ash to tell him that he is personifying himself in Sunny. He wants Pratt and Jo to talk to him about everything. He wants Bob to call him up and assign him some personal work. He wants Dumbu to wish him “hi my big bro” everyday. He wants Sam to occasionally blast someone and keep smiling always……….He is missing everyone and everything.

He wants his LEVEN back.

Lying on his bed alone he keeps dreaming about all the wonderful things that had happened to him in the past four years. He wants everything to happen again right here right now. Now that each one of LEVEN has turned away from each other to reach the places where they are destined for, Sunny feels hard to realize that they became someone in life and that the time has come for them to stand on their own feet. And now that each one of them fished out of the pond and put in a bigger place called the ocean where they are bound to take their own directions. To meet, they have to swim back to the place where they started which is a very long way from where they are now. Very rarely they are going to meet. All these thoughts creep into his mind like venom. Unable to bear this bitter truth he wakes up in a whisk and tries to get out of the room to get rid of the sweet memories which are continuously haunting him. He decides to go to Amy’s room upstairs which is not rented by anyone and is currently used as LEVEN’s guest house in Hyderabad, the place where LEVEN was given birth.

He walks up the stairs hoping to get those memories out of his mind. He walks through the pile of stones stacked in the entrance of the corridor from which they used to pick and pelt the stones on each other. He looks over the pile and suddenly pauses only to see people all around. Saamaja with a cricket bat in her hand and the bowler was Sunny himself. Puppy, Amy and Ash were on the on-side and Sandy, Simmi and Bob were on the off-side, Pratt, Dumbu and Jo were leaning on the pitta goda watching the match. The kids from the adjoining Blooming Dales School peeping through their windows and cheering for Saamaja. Sunny wants to get her out and Sandy is in a very tight stature fielding at silly point. His eyes were very keen on the bat, his mind was fully concentrated, his hands were together to grip the ball into his hands immediately after 2-taps, at any cost he wants to get her out because it is his turn next. Sunny chuckles watching all this standing near the stone-pile. In a fraction of a second the world around him darkens and comes to light. Everything around him is gone. In a blink of his eye everything vanishes. All the voices gone, there were no kids and no LEVEN. His eyes become wetter, a warm wave runs down his whole body, his heart thumps more and becomes heavier. Takes a deep breath and walks.

Sunny approaches the door. He could hear nothing but the silent whistle of the breeze. He puts his hand into his pocket to grab the key. Ashish suddenly swooshes from the door screaming for help. Sunny pulls himself back to get out of Ash’s way. And immediately pushes himself a bit forward to avoid any hit by the air cooler which is hung by the window beside the door. Ash is fiercely followed by Jo, she wants to beat him for calling her “sue bhabi”. He turns around to grab Jo’s hand to stop her from beating Ash. He could find nothing but his hand stretched in the nothingness of the air. No Jo and no Ash and even the air cooler isn’t there now. The corridor was pin drop silent except for the whistle of the breeze. The memories keep coming back again. He couldn’t help the tears rolling in his eyes. Even before entering the room, memories of their last lunch together comes to his mind. Sitting round the entire room with all the food in the middle has been their trademark. It was always like a fish market bargaining rather than a meal. The laughs n noise was much more than the time they spend for the meal. He enters Amy’s room with the loud laughs of their lunch fading into thin air.

With all the memories running in his mind he lies on Amy’s mattress. Staring at the bleakness of the ceiling he reminiscences about how they used to play with water, spit water in each others mouths and occasional vomits by Sandy, how they used to spend till late night talking about all the stuff with Puppy, Simmi n Jo sitting on the wall and Sandy sitting in the center of the cot and the rest of the gang sitting around him, how they used to spend time sleeping on the terrace staring into the empty sky, how he used to yell at Puppy when he asked for a midnight walk, how Ash used to work on his system during his project, how they all spent the midnight parties, how they used to have threesome and foursome in his room while Bob used to prepare for GATE in Amy’s room and how they captured it on video, how Sandy used to get A-certificate movies by giving Sunny and Amar’s names, how they used to watch them in Sunny’s system and Amy’s system and all the things that happened to him in the room. For sometime he forgets his corporate professionalism and dwells into his life as a student cherishing all the memories from the time of ragging in first year to the time of project in the final year. Tired of the journey, he slowly falls asleep thinking about the farmhouse he dreamt of. Not expecting how life would turn him after he wakes up, he goes into deep sleep with the sweetest of the dreams.

The Rooms are our second home after our parental home. We spent most of our college life in these rooms than in college. We had the wonders our college life here and the memories with it are countless. No matter where we are and how we are, we will never forget these rooms. They will forever remain the home of LEVEN.

My 21st Birthday

In the past 21 years of my life there has never been a day full of surprises as i got n felt on this day.This day i felt like everyone of my 13 best friends r there with me.....rite beside me.

The two days which i'll remember forever:15th March 2006,the day on which i've shown my first video to MAXOS and how Amy n others reacted to it.....i can never forget and the second day was 24th June 2006 my birthday.....my 18th b'day was gud,my 19th was very gud,my 20th was damn gud coz never on my previous birthdays i was wished by so many people.....and my 21st birthday was.......... huh please can u guys help me with the proper words to describe it coz none of the words i thought of are able to match.A beautiful day or a night rather or to be precise 12:00 a.m......as usual it started off with blindfolding,driving to a secret location,silence all around n finally sparked off with magic candles,the ones which i've introduced in LEVEN n finally had the effect on myself.So many people around me...all of them my friends...cheering n yelling out the birthday song.Cake cutting was cool.It all started after that.

They had a small game n that i call cake-bashing.They made me stand a few feet away from the cake n threw cake on my face.I really wanted to eat some cake but they never allowed me to do so.These buggers i donno y they had so much grudge on me after the game they simply smashed my face into the cake which was resting on the table...the table broke n the cake finally rested in peace R.I.P.Pity myself.Then the fav game of all the idiots who were there started.Birthday Bumps.I was hit so much on that day that i wasnt able to rest my ass on any hard surface for 2 days .The most i had was from King kong Pavan n nitwit Sandy.I deserve only half the beatin i got from pavan coz i had hit him pretty well on his b'day but i absolutely dont deserve wat i got from sandy i dint hit him very much on his b'day i bought a cycle chain on his b'day jus to scare him but never hit him wit that.I believe everyone will be there on his next birthday n i donno about the rest of the buddies but i tell u sandy u will be dead in my hands n its not jus a word but a promise im never gonna break.Pavan is a lucky brat he'll be leavin for his MS n i guess he wont be here for his next birthday.Had very less from nick but actually i deserve more from him for wat i gav him.my best buddy never hurted me coz he knows he'l b dead after that :)) jus kidding.I deserve wat i got from Bob the machoman coz i had a ball with him on his b'day.Ash my tag team partner never touched me coz i dint touch him on his day maybe thats bcoz i had an injury but even if was gud i wudnt hav hit him much.Hey buddy u said u wanted to beat sandy on his day for wat he has done to me.And i'l be glad if u join hands with me on 2nd Feb 2007,the day on which sandy will be presumed dead.I had heel-kicking from Jo which was goddamn painful like someone was poking me with sharp spears.Got a bit from Prat which i felt lik someone was blowing air on me.Lolz.Beating from Sim was too painful.i shud say i got the best from this idiot after pavan n sandy.Her kicks were so continous it was like spilling a tank of petrol on moderate fire.I saved her on her b'day but she never had thankfulness towards me for that.Hate her.Even i had some from her gang 'trakkz' thank u guys for being there on my b'day'.Overall i received a beating of a lifetime.



My friends will always hav a mixture of mirchi n honey in watever they do.After having knocked the doors of hell i was poured with gifts......my fav coloured t-shirt,a bracelet,a beautiful neck chain,a cute wooden wind chime,toys...superman,krissh n the quakky crazy frog all my favs,3 lovely key chains,my fav superhero spiderman's mask,vcd n poster n above all is the heaviest of all the gifts-a boxing bag n gloves.The two biggest passions of mine r driving n boxing n i never thought i will be able to fulfil my dream of having a boxing kit of my own but my rocking friends made it come true.U all rock.I never had a hint of boxing kit as my b'day gift.No one wud believe if i say i was beaten up by such a huge thing sadly i was beaten with that,that too after being blindfolded.I will hav my vengeance on pavan n sim for that.After all this,came the most surprising n the best of all the gifts i had ever had on any of my 21 birthdays.I know how much it takes to make or modify a small part but to make such a thing is no piece of cake and no walk in a park.I can imagine how hard they wud hav workd for it but truly speaking...i can never imagine.I was awestruck with the arrangements they hav done to show me that.A projecter and a large screen which fitted nicks bedroom wall.This was a stunning surprise for me.They made a video for me.Sayin it as simple as this may sound mere ordinary but i guess they all know how much it mean to me.Hmmmmm honestly i really donno whether they know it or not.But that video is my most valued possession.My fav,my most liked n the best of all the videos i have as far as im concerned......Ash said he expected something from me after watchin it.I guess everyone expectd some words from me.As u all know guys i can never speak about my emotive feelings.Naa batukki eppudu cheppalenu naa feelings ni.Naa basha lo cheppalante aa video chukka keka.sorry ra intakanna baaga cheppalekapotunna.But it was my heart ra.itz a "Movie of Life" by the "Gift of my Life".I always feel that its very hard to surprise me coz im rarely surprised at things.But this was the biggest ever surprise to me.N i donno wat more to say about it.....truly no words for me ra.

First of all it was the video which really really surprised me n while watching it i was surprised again n again.I thot it will be jus LEVEN but then there were TRES n then came Sammi n then TRAKKZ n the thing which surprised me the most was my family in the video......mom,dad n bro never expected better than this.Then came my coll,my second home sunny n amar's room,my terrace,my bike,my fav spots n even my fav french fries.Wat more can i ask for.I got everything in it from my childhood pictures to my newest hotspot tanda garam.U've given me the same kind of things i gav u......the disclaimer,the same titles and the most amazing fast-scrolling pictures.a total surprise.Im not dat surprised by the scoldings u gave me coz it has been a routine for me wenever i meet u people but the thing which really touched me was the words which came from ur hearts.It was then i knew how much u people care for me.I love you all ra.But i really missed sammi,Sun,Amy,Dumbu n Sam.I wished they too were there with me(physically) on that day.I donno how i'll celebrate my b'day next year without u guys.I miss u people on every single day i dont spend with u.U guys went away to build ur own career but thats for good n i too hav a career to build.Missing u people is inevitable.But thats the way it is,happy days r not forever n these idiotic dull days too r not forever.

"IT HASNT REALLY ENDED GUYS.....IT WILL BEGIN AGAIN".

ASTALAVISTA.

Last days of college......

Every person.............literally every person in his life experiences the feeling which im feeling right now.The feeling which arises when you realise the truth that you will have to part from your friends.This unfortunate feeling comes only once in your life time...........thats when your lovely college days end.Not all of my college days are filled with fun n joy but the last three semesters was when i had the fun which i've never had in my life.I had fun almost everyday............yeah 90% of the days of the last 3 semesters.This wouldnt have been possible without the people whom i call "THE GIFT OF MY LIFE".I donno who gifted me these people,i would have said god but i dont believe in god.It just happens to the best of us(as we always say),i wont say im the only best..........all of us are best,every single person with a friend who loves him is best.

My college JNTUCEH has taught me a lot.Different people,different behaviours n different trends.Im not thankful to it for teaching me what life is becoz any other college would have done it.But i'll bend on my knees,bow my head,join my arms n thank my college..............for only 1 reason.............Amy,Ashy,Bobby,Sandy,Sunny,Simmi,Joe,Prat,Ramya n Sam.The ones whom i'll remember for the rest of my life.They shed tears for me,shout at me,hit me,kick me,kiss me,molest me,pour water on me,spit on me,curse me,make me feel good,make me feel bad n do a lot more things to me................

It all started one day when i was talkin to Sammi(Sameera) on phone a few days after our cultural fest Spandana '06.She said "ur college days are ending u've become old".That was when this feeling creeped into my mind for the first time.Everyone of my friends wud have had this feeling.Believe me i cudnt sleep properly that night i slept very late.All the memories of my friends just swooshed through my mind that night.I then reminded myself of the disco in Spandana '06.Disco was one of the places where u cant resist to move away no matter how much exhausted u are.It makes u feel like ur friends are there with u even if they are not physically present.We missed Amar on the second day of the disco.But we didnt really miss him,we danced for a song yelling out his name n imitating his actions.Sandy was wearing a Takkari Donga hat n was tapping his feet for all the beats.Sunny n Ash were too in the same mood.Even the most-of-the-time-reserved Bob cudnt resist to the beats..............

After several minutes i see all of them.I could only see the cold sweat glittering on their faces n air with the notes of the song gushing out of their mouths.Everyone was puffin n pantin but still manages to widen their mouth,lighten up their eyes n jump into the air when they look into their friends' eyes,any person who doesnt belong there when looked at him may feel like hez gonna die in a few minutes.Its only his friend who can understand that the death-like gesture on his face is a smile.Thats the hardest smile one can give in such circumstances.We had another such disco in our farewell party.It was the last disco of our college life.We had a rockin time in it but the only dissapointment was that we missed Ash n Ramya who doesnt belong to our department.But as i said u we dont really miss our friends in a disco.'Lady hear me tonite'(One of Ash's fav songs) reminded us of Ash n Amy when he said his head was aching reminded us of Ramya.Not all programmes in that party are worth remembering but 2 are......The disco n Simmi's speech.Many people hate me but if u ask me the one who hates me the most i would say Simmi will take the first place in the Hate-Puppy List...............that was the extent to which we both fight n curse each other...........guess she doesnt really hate me........
During her speech she was asked about her achievements and what she said was ulti rocking she said in a rockin style that it was her friends Samaja,Pratima,Jyothi,Ramya n the one and only MAXOS whom she achieved in her college life.That really pumped my adrenaline.She rocks for what she said.

The sweetest memory of my college life was on March 15,2006..........the date which i'll remember forever.It was on this day i learned how much my friends(maxos) love me.I made a video for them.I did it with my heart.They've seen it n their reaction made me feel like i conquered the whole world.Amar never reacts for anything but donno what happened to him on that day..... he broke down to tears after watching it.I DASH u Amar.Sunny was like kissing me on the phone for almost 10 mins.Sandy n Bob too reacted more than what i've been expecting.Ash too rocks.He screamed out MAXOS at half past 12 in the night after watching it..................I won the love of my friends.I love them a lot too.The reactions of maxogals too are heart touching.Thank you Simmi.Thank you Ramya.Thank you Sam.Thank you Joe.Thank you Prat.They are my very sweet n unforgettable friends.Sam is the real prankster of all the gals,if she plays a prank on anyone........he or she will definitely be speechless.Joe n Prat have always been the centre of teasin most of the times.Dont take that to your heart buddies it was just fun.We didnt really mean it.And for Ramya too for calling her dumbu n sayin that shez too fat in a dress and promising her to drop at her uncle's house n breakin it...........sorry for all that sis.Sorry Sunny for destroying the neatness of ur room everytime i enter it n also for tearin ur tank cover.Sorry Amy for doin all those actions n also for all the beatings i gave you for which u had the impressions of my hand.Sorry Sandy for adding masala to watever u told me n bookin u in front of all our friends.Sorry Bobby for shunting u to pay back my money whenever i lend u.Sorry Ashy for watever bad i did to u.Sorry Simmi for destroying n breakin all ur hair clips n bands.Sorry Joe for teasin u as Sue n DJ.Sorry Prat for imitating the way u drink badam paalu.Sorry Sam if i ever hurt ur feelings.Now seriously from the bottom of my heart im sorry to all u people for the small small hurtings which i caused u.

A lot of memories.............a lot of sweet memories with all of them.And 2 or 3 years from now the situation will never be the same.............all of us goin in different directions to achieve our own goals.
No more late night parties no more bumps no more kicking each other no more pouring water on each other no more spitting on each other n we dont even know when we all meet again when we all go to our TEMPLE together.................Me n Ash once said to each other that we are gonna enjoy these last days to the maximum n guess what........we lived it.My college days are simply unforgettable.I still have a little time to spend in my college after i post this message.I hope we all rock it up till the end.

When the days end we all feel bad becoz we are goin to leave our college............yeah that was the only time when we truly know the value of our college.We never talked good abt our college in the past 3.5 years but it is now we realise what we miss.We miss our friends miss the canteen cool drink n maaza miss the double meaning pranks played on each other miss the A certificate movies that we watched miss the late night walks n getin afraid of the dogs that come in the way miss the bunking of classes miss the copying in internals miss the threats from our lab incharge when he finds that all records have the same programs..............miss every single breath of college life.

I wish i miss u only in college but not in life.I used to say to Ash that 1 day im goin to kill the moratic Puppy within me.But that day comes only when i part from u all becoz Puppy exists only as long as u all are there with me.And I wish that day to be the day when i breathe my last.I wish we all stay together forever.

I love you Amy.
I love you Ashy.
I love you Bobby.
I love you Sandy.
I love you Sunny.
I love you Simmi.
I love you Joe.
I love you Prat.
I love you Ramya.
I love you Sam.

This is the song which reminds me of u people whenever i hear it.
Its titled Graduation(Friends Forever) by Vitamin C.It goes this way......

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?................